It finally happened. I stopped caring about overachieving in my career.
What a turn of events.
Nothing in particular happened. I wasn’t fired. I haven’t quit. Nobody fucked me over. I’m just tired.
I’ve spent my entire life overachieving. At everything. An entire life of feeling like I’m not good enough, doing enough or achieving enough.
And now, I don’t want to do any of that.
I want to move to a beach in Portugal, open a cafe and bookstore with my gorgeous fiance and just live.
Realistically since I am not independently wealthy nor a trust fund baby, I’m going to need to work. I’m also still a little driven by that little voice in the back of my head that says “but be better.”
So here are my new career goals: be paid fairly, be respected, be challenged.
I don’t care what my title is. I don’t care to level up from whatever title you give me. I simply want to be compensated for what I bring to the table (which is a lot), I want to be treated with empathy and respect and I want to do work that doesn’t bore me.
I’m kind of a dream employee. I’ve reached the level of type A where I’m still going to give you really excellent work but I’m not going to require any oversight and I won’t bring any drama. I’m simply going to deliver and shut the fuck up. On repeat.
I’m so proud of the women out there becoming CEO’s and taking over the world, we need you (seriously have you seen who is in charge, we need you desperately) — but I mostly want to just take over this spot on the beach, or in a tiny cafe with a beverage and a book.
I want the rest of my career to be “she was really really good at what she did, but more importantly, she was chill as hell and a kind person to work with.” I want you to know that I’m a top performer, but that I’m also performing well at my passion — leaving the country and seeing the world. At meeting everyone I possibly can and learning about their cultures.
I do not want to boss babe. I want to leave work at work and create a life of adventure and softness and community and learning and doing anything but being bothered by my next promotion or what BS is happening with Capitalism today.
So that’s what I’ll be overachieving at. Making that dream happen.